100 Happy Days: Days 52-53

zentangle mandala - a sit a day keeps bad dreams away

Happy  Day 52: These words that were present during my waking moments this morning. When life turns itself upside down, as happens when someone dies, usual patterns turn upside down along with everything else – even when they are habits that we know are good for us.

When life was at least a bit more settled, I had developed a fairly strong habit of meditating for 30 minutes a day. We do it right after we eat dinner so it just sort of naturally happens rather than being something we have to remember or shift momentum for on our own. We always eat dinner and if we do it before anything else after dinner we don’t have a chance to get absorbed in something else or to feel too tired later.

But the last couple of weeks have been different. Grief has colored everything. We knew we needed to meditate more than ever, but many evenings ‘too tired’ or unrelenting grief attacks would intervene. I am now noticing it affecting my sleep. My dreams are more stressful and I am more likely to wake up tied up in a knot.

So, today I am reminded again about the reasons that my daily meditation practice is so important to me.

 

zentangle mandala - As much as I don't want others to suffer, it's comforting to know I am not alone

Happy Day 53: Today was a day when many people shared stories with me about their own suffering. I of course don’t wish suffering on anyone. But, as I listened to their stories, I was present to part of me finding comfort in knowing that other  people suffer just as I do. I am not alone.

I believe this is one of the many reasons why it is so important to share our stories. Knowing we are not alone does nothing to change the cause of our suffering, but it does shift us and allows us to suffer less since nothing feels as bad when we know we aren’t alone.

 

 

 

 

 

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